Crazy

The difference in attitude two days can make.

Yesterday I was a bad motha who could kick the crap out of anybody (say that in the voice from that movie, ya know the one... I am a bad motha.... and I don't take no crap from nobody. Can't remember what its called or about but I remember that part. The reason I can not remember is because....

I am freaking.exausted. Holy crap, I can seriously barely type this. I mean, I am not sleepy. I have been getting really really good sleep. But my body is torn up exhausted.

Today was leg day. Dear Big Jon, I love you, I love to pay you to make me want to vomit for two hours at the gym. NOT! Jacker! :o) Today was by far my hardest training session. Guess what leg day plus 40 minutes HIIT on the stair mill make me? They make me the stair mills biotch. Because omgosh. Freaking hard. Like, really I can't say it enough. It was rough.

I have been what I consider pretty hardcore up in the club workin on my fitness (sing from Fergies song here), for the last 6 months. But, hardcore regular life Teri aint got nothin on figure competitor in training Teri. I mean, DANG!!!!!!

So in case you wanted a replay from my after legs lifting on the stair mill. It was like this. level 1 recovery (I usually recover at level 3) level 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, and max 15. My max so far has been 18 but today I just didn't have it in me.

I kept saying naughty naughty things in my head, and I wanted to quit 20 times. Like really, do you understand? I wanted to get off and go the hell home and sleep on the couch.

I didn't, I finished. I hated every dang minute, but I finished. I feel like in all areas of life, sometimes it is about showing up and finishing. That's it. Just being there.

I taught a lesson this weekend at church and one of the quotes was "a world class athlete does not become world class resisting rigorous physical training."

I do not intend to be world class anything. But I am gonna be MAMA CLASS FIGURE GIRL and I will not resist vigorous training. The only thing standing between the person we want to be, is the person we think we are.

I am straight up, hardcore, legit, mama fabulous. And I am gonna be rockin a small bikini showin off some SERIOUS training in about 3 months baby.