Lonesome Dove

Can I be real here for a quick minute?

Sometimes life in the healthy lane can be lonely. I feel like people are either "with" me or "against" me sometimes. Of course, that could just be me, being me, and over thinking everything once again. But, I don't think that's it. I exercise all the time, I eat healthy most all the time. I don't eat "this" and I wont ever eat "that." I don't discuss my eating or my exercise routine in detail, ever, unless someone asks.

And they ask a lot. And I hesitate usually to spell it out because I always walk away from the conversation feeling like I am weird. Or I walk away frusterated because person A asks my advice, but then says x, y, z and that is why they can't follow my advice.... or actually they just don't want to. They don't really want to change they just want to talk about it, but then live like they have always lived.

Which is great, if they want to have the results they have always gotten. Then keep doing what you're doing people. And please, stop asking me what I do and what I think.

So naturally, like anyone else I can have a "down" day. Things don't work out the way I thought, one of my kids throws up, the dog is muddy-- again, or I find my two year old has ruined two pairs of my workout shoes by walking around in one of each pair in the back yard and getting in the mud with the friggin dog. (funny? yeah, it's true.) I have a flat workout, I teach a class that isn't freaking bumping. (I like my classes heavy, intense and energetic), and let's be honest, every workout just doesn't "work out" that way.

Sometimes, my goals aren't getting met the way I want them to be. Sometimes I just want to eat 3, errr 20  freaking girl scout cookies dangit!!

But, in my new life... I don't eat cookies or cake or taco bell. (But in my older life, like the one from 9 months ago, I did fyi)

Now I have other ways of dealing and coping and I feel healthier mentally for that.

Anway, back to the point of the post.

I have been having some lonely days lately. And I have been having some down times where I feel like I don't even know what to do to help the people I have promised to help... and somehow the universe knows that I am in a funk and sends me healthy angels with comments like these, and I feel happy and healthy and thankful to be sorrounded by people willing to work hard.

"Thanks for believing in me, and for the support."
"Thanks for being there to get me through my food crisis"
"I really think your classes are great, I appreciate all that you do to encourage us and push us to do more. Thanks"
"I don't know what it is, but this time, losing weight is so much easier. It is just clicking for me, thank you "

Sometimes, being healthy can feel so lonely. But, most the time it is really so rewarding to see other people realize their potential and that they really can be anyone they choose to be, and any size they choose to be.

So next time YOU feel alone... don't! Text me, or email me, or comment on facebook. WE ARE NOT ALONE. We can support eachother!!