10 days

Another busy day in the life of this girl.

The morning was booked, and I had to get to see my swim suit lady to have her add the little strappy things for my suit. So when I got there, the back of my suit was totally gapping because obviously I am smaller now than when it was made. So we decided she would take it in a bit, because I still have 10 days and I will still be getting even a bit smaller. But today, the "bit" smaller makes my saggy skin sit on top of the bottoms more and poke out the bottoms more and now I am just trying not to whig out and have faith that the leaning out that has yet to be done will happen in those places.

Jon and Shawna seem to think it will be ok.

Did I tell you about my meals this week? Well, I never go Bachelor on you and "tell all" because obviously this plan is coordinated for just me and it isn't even a realistic diet so I would never want someone to start "doing" what I do. But I can tell you this.

I have an orgasm in my mouth after I do a workout twice a day-- I get 1/2 c oats and 4 egg whites each of those times. I seriously, would eat almost anything to keep those two meals in my life. I LOVE them. The other four meals consist of a side dish of asparagus and a main course of chicken or tilapia. YUMMM I am the girl who cried when my dad would catch fish as a kid because he always threatened to make me eat it. Yep, me. The girl who now has eaten salmon for dinner every night for the last 15 weeks and now the girl eating plain (no seasonings AT ALL) tilapia twice a day. I mean, you have to REALLY really want to do something to suffer through that crap. It isn't nearly as bad as I remember however.

So I get up at 630 am, do cardio, eat, get kids ready for the day and drop 4 year old off at preschool. Then Bubbies and I have been doing a good job of staying busy til the princess gets home at noon, they eat lunch and go down for naps. At which point I lay down as well because my patience is running out and so it my energy. Then I get up to eat at 2 pm, and we gym jam at 3, finishing at 5 high tailng it home so I can get those oats and eggs!!

Weights are such a joke. I am honestly so annoyed by the fact that I have no strength to lift a normal amount of weight, and I honestly get so effing tired doing 5 sets of 20 or 3 sets of 20. I just want to quit because my body is tired. But I don't. I finish it out and then reunite with my stair climber for an hour. Get that done, it isn't so bad. I remember when 15 minutes seemed like a friggin eternity but now, an hour goes by pretty fast. And when I am at the gym, I am not thinking about food or anything else so the gym jam is a really good place for me to be for the next 9 days. In fact today I was trying to formulate a plan to continue looking like this, while eating. I just don't know how I can manage it though. damn that to hell.

I stopped at Winco tonight to pick up asparagus, because all that I bought Monday is gone. Yeah, I eat, like a lot of it each day. So I was annoyed walking in to the store because the asparagus is very far away from the door since they renovated and made the store bigger, I didn't want to walk that far. Then I was annoyed because every dang line was like 4 people long and they all had a butt load of groceries. Then I was annoyed because the cashier kept talking to a guy that had all ready paid and needed to move the hell out of the way so she could help the two people in front of me. Then I was annoyed because the stupid freaking moron lady behind me kept scooting into my bubble (which is ATLEAST 1 foot on each and every side of me, ALWAYS competition prep or not I DO NOT like people close to me) seriously, she was so close. Then her stupid dramatic looking teenager kept bumping me with her magazine. Honestly. If that cashier would have taken one more second to count back my change of 5.02 I was going to stab someone.

7 pm and the grocery store are not a good idea.

Posing practice. Posing is going well I am actually doing the poses right. I need to practice walking with my "Ass out" as Shawna says. I feel like I should be getting more information or they should be telling me something or something, but nothing. Just keep going, almost there.

So I will keep on going.

I weighed this morning for the first time since Jon took my scale away almost two weeks ago, I am down to 123.3, which is 4 pound loss in the two weeks. I don't think I'll weigh again til Friday then maybe once next week. I have always used it as a resource to keep from over indulging or cheating, but cheating is so far from my mind-- I am too tired to even think about eating something I am not supposed to, so I don't need the scale anyway.

I need to get tickets figured out for the show. I need to go buy a fake wedding ring and I need to tan tomorrow. That is the last of it for the show I guess. I am ready. 9 days out tomorrow. Oh, I was planning on taking my kids to the show (well someone else bringing them but letting them watch), but I see that it is 15 dollars a ticket and it specifically says everyone has to have a ticket. NO WAY am I paying 30 dollars for them to wiggle and watch the show, is that bad? That is 45 bucks for my family just to go. Pictures will have to do for them I guess.