Show's Eve

Today was a good restful day. All the usual things were accomplished and I got a new book at the library to help pass time as I relaxed and the kids watched Clifford for the 30 millionth time. I finished my four gross meals--#1 of chicken and asparagus, then tilapia and asparagus, oh, yep back to chicken and asparagus, then last but not least # 4-- fish and asparagus again was under my belt at 4 pm.

I went and tried on my suit for Jon at 4:30. The suit fits perfectly nothing bunching or crunching. Today my friends, I look very tiny and very ripped as a tiny petite girl. (Have I mentioned that I am surprised that my shoulder caps aren't bigger? I love shoulder caps, so I have always worked them hard, but also... in my chubbier years I always felt like I had wide shoulders... well turns out, I did. I had a wide layer of fat on top of my shoulders because today I am at the realization that I am a really petite person underneath all that body fat I had).

Anyway, all looked "fine" (hehe) to Jon. Actually he used the word "good" for the second time I think. I practiced my posing real quick and he sent me on my way with the rest of my meal plan and the warning to "absolutely positively, not get full on anything I eat tomorrow before the show." We don't want my stomach bulging out. So I am entitled to 1 cup of oats in the morning, but if I am half way done and feel full-- I am ordered to stop right then in there in the name of the LAW! I do not think this will be an issue, but weirder things have happened I guess.

I am meeting Shawna and Amanda at the tanning salon in the morning and then we are all going to get ready at either Amanda's or straight over at the school-- time depending. You'd think this would make me very very nervous, my type A'ness and all... but I am literally so laid back about the day tomorrow I am not worried. It will all fall into place.

A friend asked me tonight if I felt ready. And I honestly do. I honestly have the goal in mind that I will not take last place, but that if I do, I will be ok. I could not have lifted harder, done stairs more effectively, or cheated less. I literally put my all into it and looking back there is nothing I can say I wish I'd done different. I simply did my best every day that I possibly could and the results are great. I feel like I look great. My stretch marks and a bit of saggy skin is still there, but with a hint of luck that tan and my amazing posing skills are going to hide it enough that it isn't going to set me back-- BUT, if it does... those are my marks of warrior hood and I wouldn't change them for my two sweet angels for anything in the entire world.

I baked my husbands team some yummy pull apart gooey mess last night before he left for work. It wasn't hard at all, originally I had planned to make it Saturday to thank them for covering for my man while he's at home helping me-- but I felt strong yesterday so I made it with out the slightest temptation for a sample. Something about knowing the refrigerator is wide open in 48 hours does that to a girl I guess. I baked some home made granola today, for me! It looks so so yummy and it is in a nice ziplock bag on the counter waiting for breakfast Saturday morning. I don't allow myself to EVER make it in real life, because it is so good that I want to eat it all in one sitting... so this is going to be a yummy treat Saturday morning with or chorizo and gooey egg party. My kids will be with their grandparents so my love muffin and I get all Friday evening and most of the day Saturday to actually enjoy time together, for the first time in a while. I can't wait to go back to the show Saturday morning and watch our bikini girl- Jen compete. And I think husband will like to see the other categories of bodybuilding too.

My bags are packed, I need to throw a pillow and a blanket in and I am all ready to leave the house at 10:30 am tomorrow. I have my food in tow and, oh, I still have to make my half sandwich for lunch at 1 tomorrow, but that is it. Everything else is packed and ready to go. We will put the kids to bed at 8 pm and then I am enlisting my husbands help to shave my whole body... yes, you read right... whole body-- shoulders, back, stomach, arms, legs, all of it has to go. I will slather the lotion, pop a benadryll and melatonin and pray that I can sleep (the past two nights sleep has been AWFUL, but that could be contributed to the fact husband just started nights again and I am not used to sleeping alone). 7 am is my breakfast call and then it is on like donkey kong. I am so ready, so so ready. I am visualizing my calm, cool and collectedness on the stage-- how easily I walk in 5 inch heels with my "booty out" and how my smile looks at each and every stop for posing. I am ready. Bring on the show baby!

Ill try to update a few pics as the day goes by tomorrow on face book, but everyone and their dog has warned me I'll be too busy-- so if I can I will snap quick shots with my phone and upload, but if not Ill recap this weekend! Thanks for wishing me luck, oh and the venue doesn't take debit cards so bring 15 cash if you are coming! BYE friends!