i look different

Happy week after Thanksgiving everyone! I hope you had a great holiday! I did! It was one of my favorites in a long time. I was on vacation for 5 days and came back only 3 lbs heavier! Woohoo!! I am getting better and better at this healthy lifestyle thing friends.
So my mother in law and I shopped a bit of black Friday and I had killer luck!! It always seems that if I have money to spend on myself I can find NOTHING, and if I have no money to spend on myself I find EVERYTHING! Well this Black Friday was different. You need to know this about me though first--
1. I have one pair of skinny jeans (until this week) and I have probably only worn them 6 times total. I am very nervous in them and feel like I don't look right in them.
2. I usually am always in gym clothes
3. I do not have a lot of style
I On our shopping adventure I found this little outfit that the sales lady sorta helped me put together. This shirt is my favorite color and I love Silver brand jeans and these are a pair of their skinnys. So I tried them on and guess what?! I felt cute in this outfit. I was so excited and I had gift certificates to spend from my birthday so I bought it. The next day I came out of my room there and my mother in law was like "you look so cute!" I was checking myself in the mirror and getting sweaty and anxious, I wasn't too sure if I felt confident in these tight jeans and top. (Head talk: I might look fat, maybe this shirt makes me look bigger, I am not even stylish I can't pull this off.) I told her I was going to take it off and think about it for a while because I wasn't sure if I felt confident in it yet. She said something that really clicked and must've been exactly what I needed to hear because ever since, I swear, I have lost 10 lbs whenever I look in the mirror. My skin is clearer, I stand taller and I FEEL different.
"In ten years you are going to look back and say, I wish I had worn this or that, I looked so good. I wish I looked like that now"
You know what? She was right. I have talked about this with other ladies and Jon even said to me while I was training for the show and doubting myself every step of the way-- "enjoy your body now for what it is and how good it looks." I look back at the pictures before I ever started training for the figure shows and I wish I looked like THAT again.
Crazy human nature and crazy body image issues. Please raise your hand if you relate.
Sometimes you read something, or someone says just the perfect thing for you and things click together and it feels SO>DANG>GOOD!
This is what my mother in law did for me. I feel awesome.
I had a hardcore leg workout last night and a hard core back training session today and I felt so strong, so in shape, so capable and I felt like I looked good. That thought is usually pretty far from my mind because I am always concentrating on the areas I want to improve rather than the parts I love.
I got a glimpse of my back and I felt proud-- so I snapped a photo, even though people were in the locker room and prolly thought I was crazy. I worked hard. I lifted heavy, I killed my abs too. I did something to better my body and my mind and for once in a long time coming-- I feel content with where I am and excited for the journey ahead.

Don't be so hard on yourself friends. I know you are, because I am-- and I know I am not the exception to the rule. Talk to yourself the way you would to me, or your best friend. Your body can hear you.

How was your thanksgiving? 

Do you wear skinny jeans or regular jeans-- where do you buy your favorite ones?

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