Face The Music

Good weigh in everyone! Yay, I am so excited to see big numbers-- all ready! Now, don't get all worried and stressed out when next week you may not lose the same amount again, or you may not lose anymore at all. Weight often comes off quickly at first, but then it starts to taper off. It is then we have to dig deep and decide what sacrifices we are willing to make in order to get the results we want.

I stepped on the scale for the first time today since the show, last Friday. I weighed 119.8 sodium depleted and dehydrated. I was tiny and felt small, hungry, and thirsty. That last two weeks of prep really depletes a body and it is not healthy nor realistic to maintain that weight or look. However, it is realistic for me to maintain between 130 and 135 lbs. That weight will look and feel really good on me, if I have gained it with proper fuel.

I assure you 137 lbs this morning (17 lb gain) is not fuel. It is sugar, it is processed food, it is literally a mixture of good fuel (50%), bad bad fuel (50%), and water retention from said bad fuel. I knew today was the day I was going to step on the scale and face the damage. I enjoyed food this past week, I really really did. I also felt really really sick multiple times from the food I chose to eat. I needed the break though and I am glad I took it-- because I had taken it-- today was easy peasy to hop back on my plan. It was easy to turn down a cake pop, it was easy to decide to bring my lunch from home oppose to eating out at the play place we went to today. I needed the time to ignore the rules and just eat to eat.

I also needed to see what this cheap fuel has done to my gym performance. Remember when I told you I was busting out 5 and 6 pull ups last week (on barely any calories at all?!)... well this week, with all these added calories I thought I would meet my goal of 10 no biggie. You know how many I did?

3 was the most underhand and 1 overhand. Why?! I have more calories to fuel those workouts.......

That fuel I put in this body of mine was the cheap crap you buy at the cheap crap station. Not the expensive high quality stuff you run in your nice car. My body feels the difference and she aint about to give me 10 pull ups when I have been treating her so..... crappy.

10 underhand pullups is a really important goal to me. I remember 6th grade P.E like it was yesterday, I am sure I wasn't the ONLY one who couldn't even do one, but I remember feeling super embarrassed that I couldn't come close to one. I remember wanting to cry, even shedding some tears over it. I was also the last one to finish the track day 400 race. I was also the one every one always mentioned was "bigger" than everyone else.

Not anymore, and I am not about to go back to that place.

So today, I put my big girl panties on and I ate clean, and healthy. You want to know what I ate? I'll tell ya

meal 1
1/2 c plain old fashioned oatmeal
4 egg whites, 1 whole egg

meal 2
1 scoop whey
2 T pb2
1 c almond milk unsweetened
1/3 c plain old fashioned oats

meal 3
4 oz chicken breast
3oz broccoli
4 oz yam
(Cooked 45 minutes before I ate it so it was cold but still delish)

meal 4
5 oz salmon
4 oz asparagus

meal 5 is coming up
1/2 scoop whey
1 t almond milk
2 t PB2
4 egg whites
cooked like a pancake and topped with 1 tbsp natural peanut butter

I missed a meal, I usually eat 6 but today we woke up late so I only have time for 5. I drank a gallon of water, and also a diet dr pepper that tasted very very good.

I imagine by Monday my weight will be around 134 because the water retention should be coming off and the sugar will be starting to come out of my system, by Friday next week my goal is 130 lbs. I am on track with clean eating until my mom's wedding Saturday of next week. I am not doing this to deprive myself, I have over indulged and I don't feel well. I have come to realize that sugar does not do well with my body. It makes my face break out, makes me retain water, and it makes my stomach hurt, headaches I have been getting may or may not be sugar related. I will blame sugar because it really is the devil and does nothing good for my body, besides keeps me sane from time to time. So next Saturday I will indulge at the wedding, but not before then.

It's good to have a plan. I have always, in every aspect of life chosen to shoot for the moon with the realization that if I miss... I still land among the stars (seriously, I know you know I didn't make that up... but I remember saying it as a teenager thinking I had). I have a plan, I am not going to freak out if things don't add up just the way I think they should, and I am going to continue trying to find a good balance between living the healthy fit lifestyle I love, with living in the real world where people eat food.

What's your plan? Failing to plan is planning to fail. Tell me about what you are doing RIGHT NOW to make the results you want your reality?