Happy Heart

So, this might seem like a weird post to post. But my heart is happy and full and so I am posting it anyhow.



My whole life I have struggled in the self confidence area. While other people have had bright shiny talents, something they are really good at and really love-- I have always lacked. I have always wondered if there was something I was good at, or something that I loved. I was never the fat girl, but always the heavier girl. I always worried that when a dance came around in school, I'd be the girl nobody wanted to take. (Partly because I was heavier, partly because I super SUCK at dancing) I always coveted other girls skinny frames. I would work out, but never really feel like anything was working to my advantage.



I got married. I have the hottest husband alive. Really, I think that. I always wondered why he picked me. I couldn't believe it when he would tell me I was hot or pretty or had a nice body. How could he think that? The image in the mirror did not reflect those nice things he said.



I got pregnant. Pregnancy did not treat me well. Yet another damper on the self confidence area. Pregnancy 2 was better. I decided to start this blog 10 months ago and have felt a sincere boost in the way I feel about myself and my abilities, and about the way I look. I write this blog because I think it is important for everyone to realize that I am a normal mom and wife, that stays home, and has made health a priority in my life. And with that priority I have become more confident in myself. If I can do it my friends, let me guarantee you something-- anyone can do it.

So at the end of my 530 am cycling class today, a fellow cycler paid me the compliment of telling me I should get my own class on the off days. Maybe that will happen. Maybe it wont. But the fact that she thought I was capable, and good enough to do it had me floating on cloud nine all day. She will never know how happy she made me. But it is a testimony to me of being nice, kind, and building other people up. We never know how the people are affected by the things we say. Thank you to that sweet lady, who sweated her butt off in my class today.

I will never be the best instructor, the skinniest girl in a crowd, or the best at anything maybe... but I am finding myself and finding things that I really love-- getting healthy, maintaining and pushing my fitness to a new level, and watching people around me succeed in their health, when in a lot of cases they thought they never could orwould. I finally feel like all those times I was "faking in until I made it," are starting to pay off.

Our bodies are what we make them. We can do hard things. We can set goals and achieve them... and nothing, my friends is impossible.